My emotions have been up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down. Today has been nice though. My brother who I largely dislike was having a sleepover a couple days ago with his two friends being oh so loud and noise (I spent all day hiding in my mum's room watching Black Books and stuff) but yesterday they decided to sleepover at one of the friends' houses too. A very good idea and so I had the house alone. During college I was home alone often because of my schedule letting me leave at odd times, but this summer break I've spent almost every day sharing the house with him. Booo!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I had a good time appreciating the quiet and aloneness. Today I went up the hilly nature reserve near my house to take pictures. (I forgot to put photography on my 20 things - make it 21, or replace frogs or my family if you want an even number). I'm picky about what I take pictures of and how good they should be so by the end I only had like half a dozen. Quality over quentity I suppose? Photography's part of my graphics so I guess I Should be more concerned with quality.
Anyway, been sad. Been joyous at times, but mostly it's been ranged on a scale from okay to bad.
I did get a binder finally. yay! The results are a little underwhelming. I feel about the same as I normally do when I have it on, that being a sort of neutral-to-contented disconnect from my physical gender. I consider myself mere aquaintances with my tits, not really happy with them but good enough. I thought binding would be huge but it's about the same fineness, which is a disappointment. My body's just a bunch of meat meant to carry my head around and get dressed up. Sometimes I wish I knew what parts of it I actually take issue with so I can work on them instead of being so whatever about it all the time. Maybe I need a fursuit. Fursuits are awesome. I went to pride with Ozzy like I always do and this year there were a bunch of people partial-suiting (it is summer so I don't blame them) that I got to take photos of with my fancy camera. I think I'd just want the head, some paws and a tail. My sona's really simple and silly looking so it'd be relatively easy to make my own, but expensive nonetheless.